Even through David Crowder!

I think that this is a good time to say thank you God cause he speaks to me very clearly sometimes. This just so happened to be one of those times. As most of you know I am in the process of finding out what I am going to do when I leave the ship and it is constantly on my mind to the point sometimes it gives me a headache. Not nice!! I also pray about it a lot and most of my quiet times are spent asking God to show me where to go next. THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT TOPIC in my life right now. Especially since people ask me all the time on the ship and some off..."So what are your plans when you leave the ship?" and my response is almost always "Well I would really like to do this and this, but I am not really sure" That exact conversation happens at least once a day!! So as you can tell it is a bit mind consuming and I think that I think and worry about it too much but then sometimes I think that I don't think about it enough.
I was out on the deck during our current voyage just listening to my music and it was on shuffle and the DCB (David Crowder band) song "Forever and Ever" came on and I listen to it all the time and I really like it so I was just singing and humming along with it and then I just stopped and listened to the words and one of the key lines in the song that gets sung over and over again is "Maybe Like a Match being Lit or the Sinking of a Ship, letting go Gets a better grip" Woah! God was saying to me, not that this ship is going to sink or, for those on the ship reading this, or that I am going to light a match but to say the best thing in either of those situations is to let it go. Becca, are you going to hold on to a match forever and let it burn your fingers or are you going to let it go and create a bonfire. Are you going to hold on to the rails of a sinking ship or are you going to let go and jump in the life boat? BECCA, are you going to keep holding on to what you want to do with your life or am I going to let me [God] have all of your hopes and dreams and see whatI am going to do? I think that hummm....ok I will give it up but you have to help!
Wow and as I was writing I was thinking about something else that was telling me the same thing. Another song!!! We were singing the song "All that I am" and the words that spoke to me were for the verse "Things in the past and things yet unseen wishes and dreams that are yet to come true all of my hope and all of my plans my heart and my hands are lifted to you." Then the chorus goes "Lord I offer my life to you everything Ive been through use it for your glory, Lord I offer my days to you lifting my praise to you as a pleasing sacrifice Lord I offer you my life"
I was not even in the crowd or singing!! I was working!!! I just started crying! Not a bad cry but you know one of those God of the Massive Universe, HOLY and PERFECT is speaking to ME, tiny me. I am listening.
I THINK THAT GOD IS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING?!?!? What do you think? I firmly believe that I need to let God have all of the plans that I have for my life and even if they don't happen he has something better for me! PRAISE GOD THAT HE SPEAKS even through songs!!!

The first of hopefully many many more!!!

Well I was sitting at the computer thinking about how I can tell you all about what I am doing more frequently and then it just hit me like...BAM!!!....Why don't I try a weekly blog?! So here I go, the first of many.

Today I worked! Sounds exciting huh? Well it was! I am in the country of Timor Leste and we had a ton of people come for a programme. Not only did they come to the programme they also ran the programme. So before they started, they wanted a sound check for the band. Now about a day before they told me what they needed, like mics, drums etc... and I trusted that. So I did my usual setup for them according to what they needed and it all went fine. Then they arrived and told me that they needed two guitars and two more mics more than what they asked for in advanced. Now normally this is not any problem at all and I am more than happy to help cause I really enjoy my job, but at the very moment they asked for all this extra a whole team separate from the first came to me and told me they needed a bunch of videos and music played somewhere else in the ship. This is quite a bit more difficult and a lot more work! But still I was happy to help with a little more stress on my facial expressions. I finally got everything working and both of the programmes well with no hitches. I think that one of the only reasons that I am able to work with such an attitude is because I feel as if I have been called to have all of my work, whether on the ship or not, be my ministry. The work I do on the ship is just as important as the people up on the stage speaking and I count that as a blessing. God has really helped me have this attitude and with it I enjoy my work alot more!

"Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you.
Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord,
because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."
1 Corithians 15:58